grammy loves you sweet girl

Ava, I dont know if you will ever read this, or if you will ever have to be told of the stress and drama your parents went through this past few months, but I do know that you will always have me and grandpop and aunt valerie in your life. we love you and will never let anyone take you fro us.

shes back!

My first slumber party with baby ava. bliss. joe and jena dropped her off -- i ate crow a little and told jena I was sorry, blah blah blah, and off they went to dinner. and drinks. too many drinks. ava played like it was her job -- oh wait that is her job. she played on her jungle mat, she played in her bouncy chair, she had george hold her while she watched the tv.and then, right after i took the picture on the right she burst out laughing.

first laugh!!!! jena said that shed been smiling for 3 days, and then her first laugh came for her granpa george. adorable!! put it in the baby book: April 3, 2009 -- Ava laughs.

and then they came home, a little too plastered to drive MY grandaughter anywhere, and climbed into the spare bedroom and we put the bassinet in our room and put our granddaughter to bed. where she stayed for 15 minutes. then she and I came downstairs and slept on the couch. it was so peaceful, just holding her and listening to her breathe. My goodness I love that little girl.

how quickly things change

for the last several months, since last june, I have been the best mom on earth. the kids couldnt sing my praises loudly enough. i was the bouncer, the gravy train, the great oz -- you name it. I supported, literally and figuratively the expectant parents. I went on doctor visits, shopping trips, hosted a shower...the list goes on and on. and then, joy of joy the baby came...and i continued to find favor with the new parents. i visited, i bought bottles, a $300 breast pump, I set up the nursery and made the curtains.

then i dared to open my mouth. what was i thinking. i got angry ( oh horrors) when the mom cancelled the babys well check up 2 times in one week. something about medicaid ( dont getme started). this is a 7 lb. baby, 6 weeks old, reflux, mom and dad have several strange health issues, this child needs to have her check ups on time. period. mom went for her 6 week check up. baby didnt. so I snapped, a little. Well, she told me i was overstepping, i had no rights, she was the mother and hung up on me. havent seen nor heard from her since, and havent seen my granddaughter in over a week. shit. so my son asked me to call her. i refused. then tonite I tried, went to voice mail. I texted: " Im sorry i offended you, i was trying to help, i will keep my mouth zipped. i miss the baby. " no responce. shit. sent the text to my son too in case he doesnt believe i sent it.

Oh well. my husband says they will need us before we need them, but thats not the point. i miss my granddaugher. what was i thinking.